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First of all, I’m on day 6 of this damn lupus flare…. But I managed to stay out of the hospital this time and I got medicated two days ago on another prednisone burst! That shit is a miracle drug ISTG!

Next, I am a property manager and manager trailer parks and my boss is driving me absolutely bonkers today. He just makes everything so much harder than it needs to be and I keep attempting to be a good advocate for the tenants of my parks but he is ridiculous. As I was telling my husband he is great at delegating but horrible at everything else. He has never been in the field. He doesn’t know what it is like for the tenants or for the manager (I.e. me) I have to see things from both sides. He has someone that is in the Philippines trying to administer the power bills to my tenants here when I am on site and have all the information, it makes absolutely no sense.

Lastly, and I have been thinking about this for a while now. Have you ever thought that you knew someone? Like really knew them. But then they go and do a complete 360 out of know where??

Yes I’m talking about Brenda again. I hate that I can’t stop thinking about it. I’ll get over it eventually but if you know me you know that I have to over analyze everything. Anyways, I think that I mentioned In a previous post that we have known each other for almost 16 years now. When I first met her she was punk adjacent. Always wore black pants and a monster hoodie, dark makeup and ratted her hair to the high heavens.

She has stayed that way over the years. Maybe added a little bit of country in there as well. Never into skulls or girly things. And it stayed that way for the entire 16 years I’ve known her.

Well she started hanging out with the neighbors as I mentioned before and now she is slowly morphing into them. She gauged her ears, like skulls and is going dark and it makes me wonder… was she always like that?? Like punk adjacent? Or was she just mimicking me and my styles and likes?? Me and my husband call ppl like that attitude sponges. I mean it is normal to start having similar interests as those you hang out with but you should still have your own personality. It’s something to ponder on.

I have yet to receive a reason she went all fucking psycho and traded me up for the next best things… I may die waiting for that answer honestly.

She apparently told the kids that I have helped raise with her that they can’t come to my house and blocked me from their snap chat. And they miss me. Every time they see me outside they run to me and tell me they miss me and give me hugs. I feel so bad because it isn’t their fault me and the mother are arguing.

I hate when parents use their kids as pawns against the other parents. Shit drives me nuts. Like grow the fuck up, stop using them to fight your battles. You know that taking them from me will hurt me the most so that’s why you’re doing it. Just fucking stop.

I love them, fuck I love her. I even love her husband. They have been family to me for a lot of years. Idk why it’s so easy for her to just throw that all away. Love evolves and ppl change yes but that respect and love is still there.

Babies if you ever see this just know I love you. I will always love you! 🥰